This is Mari Susanna Life

Welcome to my blog. In this first post I am going to introduce myself and start this journey together with you. My first name is Mari and second name Susanna, which is how I ended up with this name. Ok, let’s stop right there.. To be honest, I am not the kind of person who would want to introduce myself in a boring way and tell about my favorite food, song or country. No, I want to do this in another way. So let me tell you a story about myself in order for you to get to know me a bit more.

My graduation in spring 2021 has been one of the most important milestones in my life so far. What happened to me during this period of time, describes me as a person quite accurately. I might speak for the majority of students when stating that the graduation day is a very special day. It is the day after which one would most probably never be officially a student anymore. For me, that is 100% true. Becoming master of economics in international business was enough of an achievement for me and I honestly just wanted to get rid of the studies and move on with my life.

Let me still describe the feelings of my graduation day a bit more: at first, the relief was real; this was the day I have been waiting for so long, wasn’t it? Yes, for sure it was. I had been studying for 6 and a half years, it was time for me to turn the page in my life. However, in addition to the feeling of relief, I got myself caught in the feeling of emptiness, in a way. I asked myself the question “and now what?” From the moment I graduated and received that paper saying “master of economics”, for sure it felt good. But I also felt that now I needed to start doing something else, something more. I asked myself; was this something that I actually wanted to achieve? Why this did not feel as good as I thought it would feel? I guess I am not the only one going through these thoughts. Is this the dilemma of life that you always want something else than what you already have, right?

I have worked in a specialist position in supply chain management for three years, and already before my graduation I felt it would be time to turn the next page in my life once my studies were completed. You might think, what did I then do in order to move forward with my life? No, I haven’t yet started in a new job position neither quit my job in order to find myself. Instead, what I have done is that I have spent hours and hours thinking, what would be my next move, and where would I want to see myself in the near future. I am still partially on that journey but still proud to say that I have already taken the first steps towards my future. One example of that is when I encouraged myself earlier this year to talk to my boss and arranged myself a remote working abroad for a longer period of time. Our company has already moved toward a hybrid model when it comes to remote working and office working (and yes, I think it is needless to say that I refer here to the life after that little thing called COVID); we should be at the office and home around 40-60. Therefore for me, arranging a three-month remote working/holiday in Portugal at the beginning of year 2022, truly has been one big accomplishment for me.

In a nutshell, I am at that stage of life, where the world is open for me and the possible paths to take are almost endless. This is the time when I can decide where I want to live, where I want to work, what I want to do in my free time or whether I want to build a family or just travel the world. What an ideal situation, right? Yes, for sure it is. But this all is also stressing the heck out of me every now and then. I try to ignore this following fact, but nobody’s perfect, they say. In today’s world, the society is pushing people to “have it all figured out” already at a very young age, and people should accomplish more and more. Nothing seem to be enough, YOU are not enough. This is something I really want to fight against. Along the way I have learnt that I don’t even want to have it all figured out, whatever that even means. Anyway, for whom we would need to have it all figured out? Just asking. What I want from life, is to be able to live the kind of life that makes me happy, doing things I love, feeling all kinds of emotions and finding joy in each and every day. What that means in practice for me, you will definitely find it out later on!

Let’s continue in the next post!

x Mari Susanna

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